It’s Hard to Be Neutral In the Binary

You understand.

Then you don’t.

It’s not proper English.

Even though Shakespeare used it?

“Are they made up?”- your pronouns

“Do you know any adults,

who do/use these?”

Why yes, I do.

Invalidation.

.

“It’s what your parents named you.”

They don’t even call me that, anymore.

I want it legally changed.

“But in your medicals it says…

we can’t use something else”

“I’m not sure I’m okay with this.”

I’ve know what I want it to be

for years now.

“But that doesn’t matter

until you get your diploma.”

I’m afraid

of being stuck like this.

“Can’t you just, wait??”

.

“So this friend of yours

Guy, girl, ?

I don’t understand,

simplify it for me,

what kind

of junk

do they have?”

“What do you have?-“

bc that’s what defines me/them

and you won’t accept

when I don’t tell you.

.

“I wouldn’t expect,

you to own this lace.”

“You’re using female mannerisms.”

“Why are you in this skirt?”

“Compared to what you’re wearing now,

you know,

you would look great

in a dress,

you can really

pull it off.”

I don’t feel comfortable,

in formal clothes anymore.

Unless they are a costume.

“-Why don’t you?”

“I’m on this side of

the mechitza

to be respectful”

But where should I really be.

Either way I dress,

I feel invalidated.

.

“You have mosquito bites,”

“-No you don’t”

Just don’t look down.

“You don’t like your chest?”

I can’t breath when I bind

“Surgery? Gross,”

“It’s ok _____, erase your memories

that I said or want this.”

“Why do you need this,

aren’t we all,

just

human?.”

Stop trying

to shut me up.

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